Who is in Control of You?

Awareness cannot see itself. The eye cannot look in, upon itself. It requires a mirror.

A reflection.

What we call God—the true un-manifested raw energy, pure potential and observation—has no gender, no form, no thought. The source of all existence is a quantum field from which all arises. This is ultimate awareness on a level that we cannot even comprehend.

And so.… It expresses itself.

Through polarity, contrast and endless forms of creation.

Female / Male

Heaven / Earth

And in between these two, the astral realm and the earth, is you.

The human being as the energetic electrical, emotional, conduit of creation between the cosmic and the material planes. A translator and micro version of the creator. Humans are here to receive thought, charge it with emotion, and move it into creation through action.

Mental. Emotional. Physical.

Astral. Material. Action.

This trifecta is how creation happens.

Everything in existence—humans, animals, trees, rocks, rivers, clouds—are versions of Source fractioned into infinite forms. Endless awareness, splitting itself into perspectives, just to experience itself from every angle. Including yours.

When you go within and truly get to know yourself, you are doing God’s work. Because that is it's purpose—awareness getting to know itself, through every possible lens.

This is why having a practice matters.

You must take care of your body so your mind can remain clear. You cannot allow the lower impulses to lead. When the lower mind is in control, the body becomes the ruler. And the body left unchecked, will chase comfort, stimulation, escape.

Overeating. Over-drinking. Promiscuity. Numbing. Avoiding.

Doing the very things you know are not aligned… simply because you don’t “feel” like choosing differently. But if you cannot direct your own impulses…what can you direct?

The body is a follower. It will follow you into destruction, or it will follow you into mastery.

It will follow you to eat the entire box of cookies, or to train for a marathon. To stay stuck, or to climb your own version of Mount Everest. It all depends on how you lead yourself.

This is where a real yoga practice begins.

Not with flexibility. Not with aesthetics. Not with a new instagram page. But with repetition and paying attention to yourself. The way you move the way you breathe the way you react the way you endure the way you quit the way you grow and then the why. WHY. Why do I act this way. Why do I think this way? Why do I live this way, you will eventually find yourself wondering.

The very early stages of yoga are about learning to observe and control your body. You will observe and over come many of your physical and mental patterns and triggers. You will learn to sit with your urges without immediately obeying them. And ideally… you will be helped along by a teacher who reflects your behavior back to you with compassion.

Over years you learn many powerful things about yourself. One of these is that you cannot control every thought that arises, but you can choose whether you engage with the thought or not. You can choose your responses to the outer and the inner world. You don't have to be reactive. You can hear other perspectives or stray thoughts without being rattled.

Your body is your vehicle within this realm. And your subconscious is what operates much of it—heartbeat, breath, digestion, fight or flight… automatic processes beyond conscious thought. And yet most often overlook that our subconscious is fully programmable. Not programmed by what we wish were true—but instead by what we deeply believe to be true. The sunconscious mind does not rationalize. It does not question. It simply follows instruction. How you speak to yourself—internally, consistently day after day—matters more than anything else.

Your highest self is not a ‘human being’, it is some kind of cosmic substance that we cannot even begin to understand. The God presence is something far more vast than we even have language for. Everything in existence is made of invisible frequencies and vibrations. Waves and particles waiting to arrange themselves based on our insistence and demand.

We perceive only a tiny fraction of "reality" through our senses. We can only see a tiny fraction of the light spectrum that we are even aware of. Even sight is not “seeing”—the eyeballs don't see, the brain is interpreting their data. Pain is interpreted. Healing is interpreted. Who can explain what the brain does when people are healed through the placebo effect? We think we only use 10% percent of the brain but perhaps that is all the instruments we have are able to measure. There is far more happening between God and the brain than we can consciously grasp. This kind of mystery makes it so that deep spiritual truth cannot be fully verbalized. It cannot be experienced through words on a page. It must be lived, embodied and known.

Gnosis.

Knowing thyself.

Because no description on a page can replace direct connection within your deepest inner being. And here again is why you must practice going within. Sitting in peace and letting your spirit receive the silent wisdom from source . Everything that exists is part of one interconnected field of consciousness…experiencing itself from every possible angle.

You are one of the sacred angles of awareness.

I'm going to be giving you some self work. This will be baby steps into a meditative mental clarity practice. As we go on, I will add deepening layers to your practice of mental conditioning.

Your First Task

We begin simply by learning simple body control.

For the next 7 days or until you can do it with ease:

Once a day, sit in silence without moving for 15 minutes.

No music. No phone. No distractions. Eyes closed. Body still.

Seated upright in a chair, or on a meditation pillow perhaps with your back against the wall if you need support. If it is possible you will practice in the same spot each time.

Not on the couch or in your bed. Not with other people around.

If it is really painful and you cannot tolerate it then you will lay on the floor in savasana pose. Flat on your back with support under the knees and head.

Set a timer for 15 minutes. Do not move your body for the entire time.

Let your thoughts roam.

If it is too easy then do 30 minutes.

Afterward, write down what you experience in your journal. Do this every day for one week or until you can do it without any fidgeting or distress.

What is the goal? To realize you are not your thoughts, you are simply the observer of the thoughts.

This is one way we will begin going within and becoming aware.

with Love,

Aja